Don't mess with my chocolate

Well what do ya know...?  I was up and at 'em today.  I actually had nothing to report yesterday, because I did absolutely nothing.  I was still feeling 'unplugged' and I just laid about.  You know, there's a guilty/shame vibe that goes along with that.  At least for me.  There's also a feeling that something deeper is 'wrong', and what if it's not detox?  That sort of thinking.  That's the hypochondriac in me, rearin' it ugly head.  I do know that the further I go into raw, the quieter that voice gets, and it's just a matter of time before that's the last thing on my mind.  YAY something to look forward to.  It hasn't been too bad or anything...just these vague musings I bat away like flies.  Shoo, already!

But I had more energy today, and it's always easier for me to trust the process from that standpoint.  I enjoyed my green lemonade, though not until later in the day.  In the morning, I ate 2 bananas and exactly one date.  I find them quite awful on their own.  Even the lovely organic medjools.  I love what they do to a dessert, but alone, they are too much.  Too intense and not the right kind of sweetness.  I guess I'm a chocolate girl and everything else sweet kinda pales.  (Well, except Islander's shortbread.  Dang, Girl, I found the recipe and was sooo tempted.  The only thing that saved me was remembering that I don't have an oven.) Is there a raw shortbread?  Methinks that would pale, too...but let's give my head a shake here, lots of raw sweeties to love...like, those brownies.  Unparallelled!

We had a gig tonight, our last show of this year.  It was a small concert at a private holiday party,  held in a community centre, and I figured there would be party food to avoid, so I wanted to make sure that I fed us a raw meal before we left the house. 

I chose Gabriel Cousens' raw chili, salad, and raw chocolate pudding.  The pudding was awful!  I think it was my fault.  lol  The recipe is simple...1/2 avocado, 6 dates, 4 tbsp cocoa.  Well, I don't use cocoa when I'm raw, I use raw cacao.   My grocer was out of raw cacao, so I bought cacao nibs, and ground them.  I whipped it up in the Vitamix until it was powder, and added the other stuff, and couldn't believe how crapola it tasted even though it looked like gorgeous pudding.  When my boyfriend tried it, even he scrunched up his nose and said, "It's pretty intense..."  So later, after the gig, I was now on a mission (screw with MY chocolate, will you!?)  went to a different grocery store and bough raw cacao...(this stuff in the photo, above) it's what I make the raw brownies with...it's *cough$14cough* (that is inSANE and I need my head examined but I bet if I fed a raw brownie to the guy examining me, he'd want the recipe too).  But back to this pudding; it is hopeless.  Even with raw cacao, it was assy. I didn't throw it out, though, I chopped bananas into it and put it in the freezer for when I'm desperate, lol.) Maybe Natalia Rose and I have a very different palette.  Could be, right?  From now on, for chocolate pudding, I'll just make the brownie icing and serve it in a dish. 

2 avocados

1/3-1/2 c agave nectar

1/4 c cocao powder

2 T coconut oil

1/2 tsp vanilla extract

dash salt

dash cinnamon

But the chili, ooh the chili, it was divine!!  I love this recipe.  Easy and fabulous.  It was the perfect dish before heading out on a rainy night to play tunes at a party.

What a great bunch of folks.  We had a wonderful time. It was easy to resist the little sandwiches and cheezies.  I mean, I coulda, but I'm doing something here! :)  Steve did, though!  haha it makes me smile to tattle on him because I know only I care.  He sure doesn't.  He's the most 'take it as it comes' guy in the world. He sweats NOTHING.  If he wants a damn cheezy, he'll eat it and then enjoy raw stuff with as much gusto.  Not like us women, who think 'now look what I've done, it's all ruined!' lol 

The host who hired us gave us a lovely magnet along with our pay.  She didn't have to do that, and it was a beautiful gesture.  And we brought 12 Cd's to sell and by gum, we sold 'em all!  Yeehaaa!

Indeed.

So to end this post with a couple photos of things I'm grateful for... hmmmm.....SNOW!  This photo was taken by my friend Dorothy at her farm in Alberta.  I wish I was there, sitting in her kitchen, with this view!

Twisted X boots...oh my I am so looking forward to looking down and seeing a pair of these on my feet! Won't these be hot at gigs??  Oooh mama.

xo

Rawkin'