Saturday, 30 July 2011
what a difference a year makes :)
Funny how your body remembers anniversaries. I think we've all shared that experience, where we feel out of sorts and then realize it's coming up to the month that marks a loss. Tomorrow, the 31st, would mark "our" 18th anniversary, and a day later, on the 1st, his telling me it was over. So naturally, it's been in my thoughts. You may be surprisd to know that it doesn't bring me down much anymore. I mean, I'll always see it as the tragic ending of my greatest love (so far...it's a long life;)) but I've turned into a realist, and and it is what it is. So I've made it my business to move on.
I remember in those first few months, I thought I'd just dissolve from the grief. It's actually turned into a really amazing year. I'm turning into someone I like better than before. I've also had many times where I've broken down in tears, and still do. But overall, I'm diggin' it. As I've told some friends, when you take the grief out of it, being single is not half bad.
I don't always love living alone, but I'm getting better at it. I dunno, it depends when you ask. Ideally, I'd like to live with someone again.
I took a trip to Maui in April and I sang with some new musicians friends who want me to come back. Sigh. It's on my mind a LOT.
Things are good in my food world... I've been weaving my way around pretty well, eating lots of fruit and drinking smoothies and green juices. I'm feeling lighter all the time, in all ways.
I'm still working at Organic Lives, and I am feeling really blessed with the friends I've made there over the past year. I'm talking 'keepers'. The kind that you feel you've known/will know, for years.
So... Happy Anniversary to me. :) lol