Saturday, 30 July 2011

what a difference a year makes :)


HeyHey :)

Funny how your body remembers anniversaries.  I think we've all shared that experience, where we feel out of sorts and then realize it's coming up to the month that marks a loss.  Tomorrow, the 31st, would mark "our" 18th anniversary, and a day later, on the 1st, his telling me it was over.  So naturally, it's been in my thoughts.  You may be surprisd to know that it doesn't bring me down much anymore.  I mean, I'll always see it as the tragic ending of my greatest love (so far...it's a long life;)) but I've turned into a realist, and and it is what it is.  So I've made it my business to move on. 

I remember in those first few months,  I thought I'd just dissolve from the grief.  It's actually turned into a really amazing year.  I'm turning into someone I like better than before.  I've also had many times where I've broken down in tears, and still do.  But overall, I'm diggin' it.  As I've told some friends, when you take the grief out of it, being single is not half bad. 

I don't always love living alone, but I'm getting better at it.  I dunno, it depends when you ask.  Ideally, I'd like to live with someone again.

I took a trip to Maui in April and I sang with some new musicians friends who want me to come back.  Sigh.  It's on my mind a LOT.

Things are good in my food world... I've been weaving my way around pretty well, eating lots of fruit and drinking smoothies and green juices.  I'm feeling lighter all the time, in all ways.

I'm still working at Organic Lives, and I am feeling really blessed with the friends I've made there over the past year.  I'm talking 'keepers'.  The kind that you feel you've known/will know, for years.

So... Happy Anniversary to me. :)  lol

xo
Rawkin'

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Sending Such A Hug To You !

Anonymous said...

Lucie,
Sending you California sunshine and love.
I come here when I want to see how you are doing.
It's a hit or miss kind of thing, I am glad I stopped by today.
You are such a beautiful person.
I just wanted you to know. ;)
xo,
Lori

Rawkin' said...

Aw, thank you, Anonymous! Right back atcha!!
xo
Rawkin'

Rawkin' said...

Hi Lori,
Thanks for the love, Baby!! You know it's mutual!! xoxoxox

Thanks for checkin' in on me :)

xo
Rawkin

Vicki Loveland said...

You have been such a great inspiration to me. I treasure your honesty.

You Rawk!!

Rawkin' said...

Wow, Vicki, thank you. That went straight to my heart. xoxoxo

xo
Rawkin'

Anonymous said...

Thanks so much for being so authentic... so RAW :)

I just discovered your blog on my own journey into live fooding and your transformation is amazing!

Thanks so much for this gift of information and your experience!

Many Blessings!

Barbara

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