... and he's gone. That was fast, huh? I guess I was the only one who was willing to sort through the fertilizer. :( She texted him and that's all it took. It was about all I could take, too. So I have to untangle myself from his energy somehow and part ways. Physically, I'm somewhere else now, but emotionally, I'm still there. I am doing EFT with my loving and wonderful mentor, and I know that will help me move through it. But MAN does this suck!!!
Nothing raw to report today, haven't eaten yet. Just wanted to take a moment to give you the honest update.
Love to you all,
xoxo
Not so Rawkin'
Sunday, 19 September 2010
ah well...
... and he's gone. That was fast, huh? I guess I was the only one who was willing to sort through the fertilizer. :( She texted him and that's all it took. It was about all I could take, too. So I have to untangle myself from his energy somehow and part ways. Physically, I'm somewhere else now, but emotionally, I'm still there. I am doing EFT with my loving and wonderful mentor, and I know that will help me move through it. But MAN does this suck!!!
Nothing raw to report today, haven't eaten yet. Just wanted to take a moment to give you the honest update.
Love to you all,
xoxo
Not so Rawkin'
Nothing raw to report today, haven't eaten yet. Just wanted to take a moment to give you the honest update.
Love to you all,
xoxo
Not so Rawkin'
Wednesday, 15 September 2010
Meanwhile, Back in the Vitamix of Life...
Welp...he's back. Haha funny thing, life.
We're not sure where this is going, but he's back. Shiny & New didn't hold up against Old & Established. What can I say, the boy came to his senses. He left her a couple weeks ago.
Why did I take him back? Well, that part was a no-brainer, I love him for all time. 17 years is a lot of history and I missed him so incredibly while he was gone. Of course, this is served up with a generous side of scalloped pain and fricasseed heart. I've got a lot of pain & anger & confusion to crawl around in for a while. We both do. He is so guilt-ridden and in such emotional pain over this (which works for me, lol.)
To add to this situation, he has suffered a severe and rare joint-attacking strep infection and spent a couple weeks in hospital. He been using crutches for a while now and will be on an in-home i.v. program until the end of September. I've been hearing the word Karma a lot lately. But that would be kicking him while he's down, and believe me, nothing being said is something he hasn't already told himself. He's in constant pain, which is lousy for the perspective, so he's depressed.
Yet, here I am, loving him to pieces. We don't know if we're going to stay together, but at least SHE's out of the picture, and without an unwelcome third party, we can sort through our 'fertilizer', and either create a new beginning or at the very least, an honorable goodbye, something more befitting our 17 years together.
It has been, and remains, a pretty painful time in life, and I am so grateful to you for all your love and support. It means more than I can even say. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
In other news...
I am working at Organic Lives and am in my third week of it. It is a physically demanding job, at a delightful company, for wonderful owners. I'm wiped out at the end of the day, and limp to my van. I did wear my ugly blue crocs today and didn't limp nearly as much, so I'll stick with those rather than the black & white converse runners...stylin', but not nearly as comfy. ;)
I am in the 'Manufacturing Department', on a team making things like raw crackers, macaroons, pizza crusts, sesame gaufrettes, and other delicious gourmet raw treats.There is so much to know and I'm determined to learn it all, as this is so in line with who I am, and I view this job as a gift that came at the exact right time, so I want to 'do it proud,' and make the owners glad they hired me.
It's made it easy to eat raw during the day, because for lunch I drink a smoothie or a green juice and I eat a salad. This is so wonderful!! I'm starting to come home and make another smoothie for my dinner, but some days I eat a steamed meal of veggies and salmon, depending on my mood. (I always type slamon first.) Slammin' Salmon dinner. Sung to the tune of 'Some Enchanted Evening... ahem.
Life is so strange and sure does keep ya guessin', huh??
Love to you all,
xo
Rawkin'
PS When I'm less shy at work, I'll get someone to take a photo of me in my uniform :)
We're not sure where this is going, but he's back. Shiny & New didn't hold up against Old & Established. What can I say, the boy came to his senses. He left her a couple weeks ago.
Why did I take him back? Well, that part was a no-brainer, I love him for all time. 17 years is a lot of history and I missed him so incredibly while he was gone. Of course, this is served up with a generous side of scalloped pain and fricasseed heart. I've got a lot of pain & anger & confusion to crawl around in for a while. We both do. He is so guilt-ridden and in such emotional pain over this (which works for me, lol.)
To add to this situation, he has suffered a severe and rare joint-attacking strep infection and spent a couple weeks in hospital. He been using crutches for a while now and will be on an in-home i.v. program until the end of September. I've been hearing the word Karma a lot lately. But that would be kicking him while he's down, and believe me, nothing being said is something he hasn't already told himself. He's in constant pain, which is lousy for the perspective, so he's depressed.
Yet, here I am, loving him to pieces. We don't know if we're going to stay together, but at least SHE's out of the picture, and without an unwelcome third party, we can sort through our 'fertilizer', and either create a new beginning or at the very least, an honorable goodbye, something more befitting our 17 years together.
It has been, and remains, a pretty painful time in life, and I am so grateful to you for all your love and support. It means more than I can even say. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
In other news...
I am working at Organic Lives and am in my third week of it. It is a physically demanding job, at a delightful company, for wonderful owners. I'm wiped out at the end of the day, and limp to my van. I did wear my ugly blue crocs today and didn't limp nearly as much, so I'll stick with those rather than the black & white converse runners...stylin', but not nearly as comfy. ;)
I am in the 'Manufacturing Department', on a team making things like raw crackers, macaroons, pizza crusts, sesame gaufrettes, and other delicious gourmet raw treats.There is so much to know and I'm determined to learn it all, as this is so in line with who I am, and I view this job as a gift that came at the exact right time, so I want to 'do it proud,' and make the owners glad they hired me.
It's made it easy to eat raw during the day, because for lunch I drink a smoothie or a green juice and I eat a salad. This is so wonderful!! I'm starting to come home and make another smoothie for my dinner, but some days I eat a steamed meal of veggies and salmon, depending on my mood. (I always type slamon first.) Slammin' Salmon dinner. Sung to the tune of 'Some Enchanted Evening... ahem.
Life is so strange and sure does keep ya guessin', huh??
Love to you all,
xo
Rawkin'
PS When I'm less shy at work, I'll get someone to take a photo of me in my uniform :)
Meanwhile, Back in the Vitamix of Life...
Welp...he's back. Haha funny thing, life.
We're not sure where this is going, but he's back. Shiny & New didn't hold up against Old & Established. What can I say, the boy came to his senses. He left her a couple weeks ago.
Why did I take him back? Well, that part was a no-brainer, I love him for all time. 17 years is a lot of history and I missed him so incredibly while he was gone. Of course, this is served up with a generous side of scalloped pain and fricasseed heart. I've got a lot of pain & anger & confusion to crawl around in for a while. We both do. He is so guilt-ridden and in such emotional pain over this (which works for me, lol.)
To add to this situation, he has suffered a severe and rare joint-attacking strep infection and spent a couple weeks in hospital. He been using crutches for a while now and will be on an in-home i.v. program until the end of September. I've been hearing the word Karma a lot lately. But that would be kicking him while he's down, and believe me, nothing being said is something he hasn't already told himself. He's in constant pain, which is lousy for the perspective, so he's depressed.
Yet, here I am, loving him to pieces. We don't know if we're going to stay together, but at least SHE's out of the picture, and without an unwelcome third party, we can sort through our 'fertilizer', and either create a new beginning or at the very least, an honorable goodbye, something more befitting our 17 years together.
It has been, and remains, a pretty painful time in life, and I am so grateful to you for all your love and support. It means more than I can even say. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
In other news...
I am working at Organic Lives and am in my third week of it. It is a physically demanding job, at a delightful company, for wonderful owners. I'm wiped out at the end of the day, and limp to my van. I did wear my ugly blue crocs today and didn't limp nearly as much, so I'll stick with those rather than the black & white converse runners...stylin', but not nearly as comfy. ;)
I am in the 'Manufacturing Department', on a team making things like raw crackers, macaroons, pizza crusts, sesame gaufrettes, and other delicious gourmet raw treats.There is so much to know and I'm determined to learn it all, as this is so in line with who I am, and I view this job as a gift that came at the exact right time, so I want to 'do it proud,' and make the owners glad they hired me.
It's made it easy to eat raw during the day, because for lunch I drink a smoothie or a green juice and I eat a salad. This is so wonderful!! I'm starting to come home and make another smoothie for my dinner, but some days I eat a steamed meal of veggies and salmon, depending on my mood. (I always type slamon first.) Slammin' Salmon dinner. Sung to the tune of 'Some Enchanted Evening... ahem.
Life is so strange and sure does keep ya guessin', huh??
Love to you all,
xo
Rawkin'
PS When I'm less shy at work, I'll get someone to take a photo of me in my uniform :)
We're not sure where this is going, but he's back. Shiny & New didn't hold up against Old & Established. What can I say, the boy came to his senses. He left her a couple weeks ago.
Why did I take him back? Well, that part was a no-brainer, I love him for all time. 17 years is a lot of history and I missed him so incredibly while he was gone. Of course, this is served up with a generous side of scalloped pain and fricasseed heart. I've got a lot of pain & anger & confusion to crawl around in for a while. We both do. He is so guilt-ridden and in such emotional pain over this (which works for me, lol.)
To add to this situation, he has suffered a severe and rare joint-attacking strep infection and spent a couple weeks in hospital. He been using crutches for a while now and will be on an in-home i.v. program until the end of September. I've been hearing the word Karma a lot lately. But that would be kicking him while he's down, and believe me, nothing being said is something he hasn't already told himself. He's in constant pain, which is lousy for the perspective, so he's depressed.
Yet, here I am, loving him to pieces. We don't know if we're going to stay together, but at least SHE's out of the picture, and without an unwelcome third party, we can sort through our 'fertilizer', and either create a new beginning or at the very least, an honorable goodbye, something more befitting our 17 years together.
It has been, and remains, a pretty painful time in life, and I am so grateful to you for all your love and support. It means more than I can even say. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
In other news...
I am working at Organic Lives and am in my third week of it. It is a physically demanding job, at a delightful company, for wonderful owners. I'm wiped out at the end of the day, and limp to my van. I did wear my ugly blue crocs today and didn't limp nearly as much, so I'll stick with those rather than the black & white converse runners...stylin', but not nearly as comfy. ;)
I am in the 'Manufacturing Department', on a team making things like raw crackers, macaroons, pizza crusts, sesame gaufrettes, and other delicious gourmet raw treats.There is so much to know and I'm determined to learn it all, as this is so in line with who I am, and I view this job as a gift that came at the exact right time, so I want to 'do it proud,' and make the owners glad they hired me.
It's made it easy to eat raw during the day, because for lunch I drink a smoothie or a green juice and I eat a salad. This is so wonderful!! I'm starting to come home and make another smoothie for my dinner, but some days I eat a steamed meal of veggies and salmon, depending on my mood. (I always type slamon first.) Slammin' Salmon dinner. Sung to the tune of 'Some Enchanted Evening... ahem.
Life is so strange and sure does keep ya guessin', huh??
Love to you all,
xo
Rawkin'
PS When I'm less shy at work, I'll get someone to take a photo of me in my uniform :)
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